02 Feb Prayers from The 21 Days
2/2/21 – Citylight Church
How did the Lord work in you through our 21 days of prayer and fasting? How did He consecrate your heart? How did He reveal His manifest presence towards you?
Take a glimpse of how two women from Citylight walked with God during our 21 days of prayer and fasting. These excerpts from their prayer journals carry a testimony of their intimacy with the Father as they wrestled with Him, sought after Him, took refuge with Him, and gazed upon His beauty. May this serve to refresh and encourage you today, and to be convinced that it is good to be near God (Ps. 73:28).
Draw us after you!
Reveal the Son of Man to us. The Resurrected King.
What are your plans for us this 2021?
Teach me to pray!
Reveal your heart for me and your plans for my life this year.
“He opened the doors of the house of the Lord and repaired them.”
“Open the doors of our hearts for worship and consecrate unto the Lord”
Repair what was broken. Heal what has been torn and broken…
Allow me to lean into You and grow in my knowledge of You these next 21 days and beyond. Give me strength to say “no” to the flesh and continue to show me that You are better. Do not let sin reign in my mortal body. Let me be disciplined in my walk with You.
We went through deep fires these past few years. I can’t believe the Lord has united us again to lift Him up in worship. He alone is worthy. I wouldn’t mind singing in empty rooms for the rest of my life. He is SO REAL. Just like the Word we were given on the first day, “the Lord is REPAIRING!!!”
You are bigger than I thought. You are immense. You made it all and you contain it all. Your immanence stretches far beyond anything I could think or imagine in my finite mind. I cannot begin to grasp just how immense You are and how great Your power is. Praise You! Let me rest in that power and in Your might. Let me rest in Your greatness. God, You are greater than my thoughts could fathom and Your plans for my life are perfectly placed and chosen to ensure that You are glorified. Who am I that you should be mindful of me? As I learn more about Your attributes, I am overwhelmed at the expanse of Your love for me. I am overwhelmed that You should be mindful of the intricacies of my small life, of my small being. God, I am here on this earth for You. To glorify You. Not my will, but Yours be done.
When I say, “You can have my heart,” let that notion be sincere. I desire to be able to let go and give up wholeheartedly. I desire to be able to say “I trust” with no hesitation and with no reservations. I desire to be able to say, “I’ll be patient” without the looming doubt in the back of my mind. God, I desire to lean more into You—thank You for giving me the discipline to take the time and the space to lean into You. Thank You for my quiet corner where I can find rest in You alone. Let me not lose that, God. Let me cherish and let me hold fast and sacred that time with You every day. Not my will, but Yours be done.
On Mondays I am able to attend the prayer set in person because my work hours are more flexible. I walked into the sanctuary, pulled up my bible, my iPad, my water, my tissues and laid it all out on the table. The beauty of having a two-hour prayer set is that you have time to dive deep into the Word.
I have always known that He is love and have never doubted His love for me. But today, He spoke so clearly to my heart:
“You have captivated my heart, my bride,
You have captivated my heart with one glance of your eyes” (Song of Solomon 4:9)
Thank You for Your goodness. Thank You for the way You sanctify Your children. For the way You slowly reveal sin in our lives that require us to sit in that conviction and then act on it. Continue to give me wisdom and strength to fight sin with Your truth. Please help guide me in Your truth and reveal Yourself to me in a fresh way. As I learn more about Your attributes, help me grasp just how holy You are. How worthy You are of my whole submission. How just You are. How merciful You are. How infinite You are. How immense You are. How good You are. Just how deserving of EVERYTHING You are. Lead me into this understanding, as much as my finite mind can handle. Not my will, but Yours be done.
What a privilege it is to be able to have a place of prayer to be able to come to. I pray that the Lord would continue to pour His anointing over this house. For the Lord is good and His mercy is forever. Surprise us Lord.
One thing I have started to notice from MY fast is that my heart has started to heal. While I cry a lot, I feel like I am laughing so much more. I honestly think all the laughter is from healing. The Lord is turning my mourning into joy.
We had a two-hour prayer set tonight. We ended up singing Psalm 103:2-5 for over an hour! Who knew we could sing for over an hour from four verses!!! The Spirit automatically led us to intercede for the house of prayer at Citylight. The manifest presence of God was SO STRONG. God’s heart for this house of prayer is VIVID!!!
“Awaken our hearts God
We lift up our church right now
We lift up this church right now
Let it be a house of prayer
Let it be a house of prayer for all nations
Build your house of prayer
Bring revival to this house
Fill this house with musicians
With an anointing of intercession
Bring your musicians Lord
Bring them to the house of prayer
Awaken hearts Lord to live for the audience of one
Awaken your church
Awaken your church in Falls Church
Awaken your church
Awaken your church in Falls Church
Bring in your workers
Call your children by name
Send the fire from your altar and set hearts ablaze…”
This fast has been hard on my body. I feel weak. But my spirit is so strong! It’s a beautiful tension.
I come burdened and thankful once again for Your provision. Thank You. Thank You for Your mercy in allowing for restored relationship with You and with others. You are good. You are sovereign and You have my best interests at heart and in mind as you so carefully orchestrate my life, every detail for my sanctification and for Your glory. God, restore to me the joy of Your salvation and sustain me with a willing Spirit. Continue to reveal Yourself to me. Let Your love and joy be afresh in my heart. Create in me a clean heart, O God. Renew a steadfast spirit with me. God do not cast me away from Your presence and do not take Your Holy Spirit away from me. I cling to Your promises in my please. Knowing that Your ways are higher than mine. Help me prepare my heart to lay aside every encumbrance and the sin that entangles me. Let me run with endurance the race that You have set before me. Help me fix my eyes on You—the author and perfecter of my faith. God, continue to heal, to guide, to love, and to forgive. For Your glory. Not my will, but Yours be done.
Walked into the prayer room today and as I opened my Bible and started to pray the Word, my heart was undone. Tears…. Lots of tears. Day fifteen and my heart is tender and my body weak. I see my humanity and my imperfections so clearly, yet I see His deep love for me. I prayed “your banner over me is love, you rescued me because you delight in me.”
God, I thank You that I can draw near to You during times of fasting, knowing that YOU sustain! I cannot rely on my own strength to sustain. I cannot rely on my good night’s sleep or food to sustain; I must draw nearer to You. I praise You because of how evidently You have made Your faithfulness known to me these last 21 days. Thank You for carrying me through uncertain times and for Your power to convict and refine me. I thank You for the process of sanctification and Your desire to draw near to me through that process as I yearn to reflect more and more of Your Son. Continue to guide me through this process as I fight sin with Your truth and through Your power. Continue to let me see it is good to be near to You. And continue to let me see the spiritual benefits of fasting in my walk with You. I’ve heard it said that fasting without prayer is just going hungry. God, thank you that we can implore You for guidance and wisdom through prayer and fasting!
Not my will, but Yours be done.
Immerse Year Two
“Show us the ancient paths
Show us where to walk
Show us the way to go
We say yes to your perfect leadership.”
A year since our last Immerse. What a year it has been! A year ago we had no idea about the pandemic. A year ago, I also didn’t know if Citylight was for me. Everything that happened in 2020 was a complete surprise. But the Lord went above and beyond and planned 2020 so much better than I could have hoped for or asked for. For one, Citylight has become my home family. Thank you Father for all you have done in one year. I love you wholeheartedly.